Thursday, March 12, 2009

I survived another Enrichment Night....

Ok, You are probably thinking, Becca you've done lots of Enrichment nights by now...what's the big deal? I'll tell you. I had to sing a solo, that's the big deal.... now here's the story. The Theme for the Enrichment Night was "With the Strength of the Lord, I can do all things." We had it all planned out (I'll give details later) except for the musical number. Several weeks ago a song kept popping up in my head, one that I sang at EFY last summer. If you know me at all you will know that I love to sing, but solo's aren't my thing. I've always been terrified of singing solos. Well I did it at EFY and it was fine...except that I didn't know everyone there really well and probably wouldn't have to see them again. That made it a little easier. Well this song kept poping into my mind and I just kept pushing it away. I WASN'T going to sing it. Well about a week before our activity I was praying trying to get the music taken care of and a few minutes later a sister on my committee brought me some music, she said that she felt like she just needed to bring this to me. I said thank you and she left, then I looked at it. It was THE song that kept coming into my mind. Well I'm NOT going to sing it. I called Candace and said that I had 3 songs that would be awesome for the activity and asked her to pick....I didn't tell her anything about the feelings I'd been having or the one song being dropped off or anything. Then she said, "Didn't you sing a Woman's Heart at EFY?" I said yeah, then she told me she wanted me to sing it. I said "NO WAY" and she laughed at me, but it didn't matter that I said no. She didn't give up. The whole time I was talking to her I felt that feeling, you know the one you get before you bear your testimony....then I talked to LeGrand and he said, Becca you should sing that song that you did at EFY, it would be perfect for your Enrichment Night. All of this happened within an hour period...finally I told Candace that I'd do it. I guess I'd been trying to get out of it for 3 weeks already, and finally after the spirit working on me, Tammy, Candace and LeGrand all joining in I couldn't say no. I've been worried about it for a week...I've practiced it probably 100 times....Well Yesterday was our Enrichment night. I woke up yesterday morning and had a really sore throat....I layed in bed talking to my Father in Heaven. I told him I didn't want to sing, that I was scared and that my throat hurt really bad...as soon as I said that the theme of the night came clearly into my heat. IN THE STRENGTH OF THE LORD I CAN DO ALL THINGS. I felt a peaceful feeling encircle me and I realized that ALL things would include singing a solo (which is way out of my comfort zone). It also included singing with a sore throat. It was seriously like Heavenly Father wrapped his arms around me. I realized that with His help I can do it! Well, LeGrand gave me a blessing before I left to finish setting up. Even though I was so nervous I thought I would either wet my pant or get sick, I didn't and it went well. My biggest concern with singing was I was afraid nobody would feel the spirit. I think the spirit was present, at least I felt it. I know that Heavenly Father helped me. As soon as I was done my throat started hurting again really bad. Tender Mercies. I'm so grateful for my Father in Heaven for strengthing me beyond my own ablilties. I'm grateful for a supportive husband, he came to watch me, left me notes yesterday morning telling me that he loves me and that he know's I'll go a great job and for giving me a blessing. I feel so blessed and really relieved that it's over.

6 comments:

Megs said...

Bravo, Becca. I just love you.

kelly said...

As much as it stinks to do something you really don't want to do, it is amazing feeling the Lord's hand in it. Many times when I look at Miss P I remember how badly I DID NOT want to go through another pregnancy and delivery, I was ok with 3 boys and the thought of never having a daughter. The little whisperings got LOUDER and LOUDER and I finally did as I was told and I have my beautiful reward!
You have a lovely voice and you should use it. I love to sing and was not blessed with a voice, so, for me Becca, use it!!!

Rachel said...

What a great post, Becca! Thanks for sharing. I, also, don't do solos, so I'm very impressed that you did it! I'm sure it was beautiful and I wish I could have been there to hear you and cheer you on! Good job!

Janelle Ehat said...

Becca you are so awesome! I needed to read this today too! I'm in charge of planning our Quarterly Enrichment meeting that will take place this next Tuesday. That came about after months of feeling prompted and then finally giving in and calling the RS Pres and telling her that I felt that we needed to do a musical Enrichment called Testimony Through Song where we'd share experiences of times when music has touched us and sustained us in our callings as mothers and wives and women. (I'm a primary teacher, not even on the Enrichment board) And now it's coming down to it and people are canceling and not going to be able to sing and I'm getting worried about it. I've been envisioning it for almost a year now and feeling really strongly about it and I'm really worried that it won't come together the way that I feel like it should! Your post totally gave me the little reminder that it will all be fine. We're doing this in response to promptings from the spirit, and we've done it with a lot of prayer, and whatever happens will happen the way HE wants it to, not the way I want it to! Thanks again! And I'm sure you did FABULOUS! You have a great voice! Wanna come sing at ours too! That's actually one of the songs that I've wanted to have sung! jk... kinda!

Anonymous said...

Becca, I MOST DEFINETLY felt the spirit. I appreicate you and the sacrifice you made to give me that blessing! YOU ARE AWESOME!

PS I don't know anything about blogging thingy :) but its Edna :) hehe

Emily said...

We've talked so you know that if I were in your shoes i would be a mess with out of control anxiety! I am so proud of you and I always knew you'd do fabulous...its in your blood! ;) The Lord really loves us! Even on the small but major events of our lives. :O) I wish I could have been there to cheer you on! I just LOVe you tons!